I can't take school anymore. only 3 more class days, then two days of finals. i am unbelievably unmotivated. its bad, because i'm in my career of CHoice, but i can't read anymore of this nursing textbook. i have done so much work this semester, i just need a friggen break. i just need to graduate already. i am mentally tired. prob cuz of having to take summer school too. blah. someone motivate me!!!!!

sooo i'm back on track, only took 2 and a half days. not that i ever really got off that bad... maybe one real bad meal and not doing my assigned workout for two days. but whatev. not weighing til mon morning. good workout tonight for the most part. only did 20 min on treadmill, but all the other stuff i do is just as good...boxing, jumping jacks, other cardio. treadmill is the devil and the angel at the same time. haha. homework time!

126.0 today. all went to hell the last 2 and a half days. so actually putting on 2.2 lbs was pretty good for eating whatever i wanted and not working out. back on track today. mostly. my calories will still be sort of high, but whatever. i hope to max out at 800 and do a workout... about -200 cals. ....total 600. i'm at 450 rt. now. its still pretty early, but its okay.

Goals...
back to 123.8 on mon.
121 sat dec 5
119 dec 12
117 dec 19
115 dec 26
112 by dec 31st

...... i wanted to be 110 and i hope i prove myself wrong by ending up at 109 by new years. that would be amazing! to do that its like .45 lbs. per day. hmm........


all the other scales make me 5-7 lbs smaller. not fair!

DREADING thanksgiving today. i can't stop counting my calories and i still come up with 310 and i think i'm at like 1000, but i've recounted too many times. lol.

123.8 today. :)

125.4 this morning! but i ate almost 1000 cals today. :(

my tummy hurts, i have no desire to do homework, so i thought i would post some pictures.

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So i'm doing the super skinny me thing, if your not aware look at it on you tube! But anyway, i am going on a 600 to 800 calorie restriction hoping to lose 14 lbs in 5 weeks. doesn't seem that hard right? k good
anyway. week one i started at 124 1/2. i finished the week at 121. I weighed myself yesterday and i was at 119 1/2. I'm right on track still but i have to be 117 by 3/1. I'll weigh myself again on tomorrow to see where i'm at. but so far i'm at a 5 lb loss and that was on day 10. I have been trying to work out alot but i tire so much easier now. it sucks. i just lift weights in my room whenever i can.


I'll post on my weigh day!

i lost three pounds. the gym said 124 yesterday. my home says 115. i refuse to weigh until saturday morning, it will mess me up cuz i have been bloated. i'm not about to step on the thing!

The Important Stuff
Age: 20
Height: 5'3
Weight: 124
Heighest Weight: 132
Lowest Weight: 102
Goal Weight : 105
Fave food : anything mexican
Fave Drink : diet pepsi
Fave Exercise : I love the feeling i get right after running...
Thinspo : nicole richie
Where do you slip up? when i am bored at home, or have a lot of homework to do
When did it start? always... 7th grade?
Why did it start? this guy i liked said he wouldn't date me because i wasn't as skinny as my friends. i knew i was fat anyway, just didn't know ppl noticed
Does Anyone know? sort of. not really no. i have had many yrs to hide it, they all think i'm normal now. ya right.
Do you want help? no ...losing weight yes!
Diet pills? hoodia, i can't remember its name, blue bottle?
fave binge food: sweets set me off
Fave dieting food: soup. sugar free jello.
How many cals do you consume a day? depends
What tips do you use to lose weight? always try to drink anything (calorie free) throughout the day, all day. eat gum.
What do you see when you look in the mirror? how fat i have gotten.
Are you in a relationship? no. but i met a boy i am kind of seeing a month ago
If so, Do they pressure you to be thin? he is a rocker boy. i want to wear skinny jeans. i'm just too fat for SKINNY jeans.
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? im medium
Are you depressed? not really
Do you self harm? used to
Ever tried to commit suicide? never did it, but figured out how i was going to do it
Ever been to a psychologist?? no, my parents are against it. i tried. i neeeded it.
Fave song? a lot!

an update on my body, it's a better picture than the other ones. i went out danceing this night, and seriously was dipping sweat for 2 hours straight. it was sooo much fun though!