nicolerae15

i'm bored

2009-03-11T13:29:42Z

my tummy hurts, i have no desire to do homework, so i thought i would post some pictures.

these are from around halloween, then got fat from holidays, but now i'm back to this size again, if now a few pounds smaller. my costume was supposed to be rainbow bright, it was last minute and i didn't realize how awful it was until i saw pictures lol. costume two i'm on the right in a playboy bunny hehe :) the pole one is not a pole, a mirror actually but its funny.i'm in the black suit. that was my vacation last summer, i was fat on vacation.

nicolerae15 @ 2009-02-25T13:06:00

2009-02-25T20:14:08Z

So i'm doing the super skinny me thing, if your not aware look at it on you tube! But anyway, i am going on a 600 to 800 calorie restriction hoping to lose 14 lbs in 5 weeks. doesn't seem that hard right? k good
anyway. week one i started at 124 1/2. i finished the week at 121. I weighed myself yesterday and i was at 119 1/2. I'm right on track still but i have to be 117 by 3/1. I'll weigh myself again on tomorrow to see where i'm at. but so far i'm at a 5 lb loss and that was on day 10. I have been trying to work out alot but i tire so much easier now. it sucks. i just lift weights in my room whenever i can.

I'll post on my weigh day!

nicolerae15 @ 2009-02-18T09:20:00

2009-02-18T16:24:30Z

i lost three pounds. the gym said 124 yesterday. my home says 115. i refuse to weigh until saturday morning, it will mess me up cuz i have been bloated. i'm not about to step on the thing!

Omg, two years since my last entry. two freakin yrs. UPDATE NOW!

2009-02-01T05:15:38Z

The Important Stuff
Age: 20
Height: 5'3
Weight: 124
Heighest Weight: 132
Lowest Weight: 102
Goal Weight : 105
Fave food : anything mexican
Fave Drink : diet pepsi
Fave Exercise : I love the feeling i get right after running...
Thinspo : nicole richie
Where do you slip up? when i am bored at home, or have a lot of homework to do
When did it start? always... 7th grade?
Why did it start? this guy i liked said he wouldn't date me because i wasn't as skinny as my friends. i knew i was fat anyway, just didn't know ppl noticed
Does Anyone know? sort of. not really no. i have had many yrs to hide it, they all think i'm normal now. ya right.
Do you want help? no ...losing weight yes!
Diet pills? hoodia, i can't remember its name, blue bottle?
fave binge food: sweets set me off
Fave dieting food: soup. sugar free jello.
How many cals do you consume a day? depends
What tips do you use to lose weight? always try to drink anything (calorie free) throughout the day, all day. eat gum.
What do you see when you look in the mirror? how fat i have gotten.
Are you in a relationship? no. but i met a boy i am kind of seeing a month ago
If so, Do they pressure you to be thin? he is a rocker boy. i want to wear skinny jeans. i'm just too fat for SKINNY jeans.
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? im medium
Are you depressed? not really
Do you self harm? used to
Ever tried to commit suicide? never did it, but figured out how i was going to do it
Ever been to a psychologist?? no, my parents are against it. i tried. i neeeded it.
Fave song? a lot!

nicolerae15 @ 2007-04-01T23:55:00

2007-04-02T05:59:05Z

an update on my body, it's a better picture than the other ones. i went out danceing this night, and seriously was dipping sweat for 2 hours straight. it was sooo much fun though!

and not ed related, but i made myself feel good and got my nails done and a pedicure. i haven't done it forever, and it always makes me feel pretty :)
pink tips, i wanted to be an outcast!

nicolerae15 @ 2007-04-01T23:50:00

2007-04-02T05:54:56Z

okay so i weighed myself on friday, 125...ahh! it needs to stop going up! i'm sooo discusted, two pounds away from my highest weight. yuck. so i was going to start a new fresh summer diet, like lose ten this month. haha another diet, i change them all the time. but here are my foods; oatmeal, lunchmeat, v-8, and yogurt. i will still eat about every three hours and about 700 calories. This first week i'm going to starve myself and shrink my fat stomach. soo i'm just going to do a "go as long as i can before i'm going to pass out hungry" i will do around 400 calories a day. i never go that low. okay so 500. i CAN'T SLOW MY metabolism. i'm getting back in the gym, back to running 40 minutes. i'm def going for a runners body.

i was doing good today until i ate the left over pizza, two slices and 3 hot wings. but then i threw some of it up :s, NO MORE PURGING.

but anyhow, one meal, one mess up. it's okay tomorrow will really kick start my day once i buy the groceries for my diet plan. anyone want to join? plz do, it's sooo nice to have a partner!

I call this the ex-boyfriend diet

2007-03-23T19:11:54Z

yay me, i will get skinny... not average, skinny. again. i miss wearing 24 's not size 24, waist 24, like a 0. i'm at a 27 right now, well they are a little big on me, but 26 is still too small. i like my jeans tight. i have to get summer legs, aka very skinny, to weight suits and skirts. summer is exciting :)

my diet will be the kellogg's diet. just for 2 weeks. it says up to 6 lbs. i will lose 8! i'm really here i am two weeks ago ( i lost maybe two pounds, i wasn't really trying) i don't really have any body shots, so i'm just putting in my random drunken pics :)

nicolerae15 @ 2007-03-19T15:16:00

2007-03-19T21:28:15Z

okay so it's been a while and i got fat on xmas break, but here i am... serious AGAIN. i got up to a new max weight of 127...for 5'1 body frame that is ginormous. I haven't weighed myself on the balance beam scale yet, but on my scale i weight 118, so i'm probably around 122 on the real scale. that one needs to say 107 by this summer. in one month. i'm sick of this. i've started a new diet, this one is more like a change of life style, not extreme, but should be very very efficient.
here it is and anyone who wants to join lemme know, we can do daily things together. one month of a 10 lb loss. okay here we go
i'm eating every three hours from the moment i wake up and my last time will be no later than 8 pm, hopfully i can move that down to 7 pm. but that's the start. i really want to know what i weigh so i can figure my goal weight, but any how i'll just go for 112 for this time next month, sounds good. i can pretty much eat anything, but it has to be very very very low in fat and calories. since i'm a poor college student, my shopping lists usually differ depending on my funds, so a strict diet is hard. but absolutely no fast food, no eating at night, and no binging, since i eat so much throughout the day. high fiber, lots of protein, and calcium. drink tons of water and work out at least 5 days a week. i'm going to try to count calories, but since i'm not restricting every single food from my diet its kind of hard to count calories, but i subconciously do it anyway. but by not depriving myself, i won't binge. i bought those skinny cow icecream bars at 140 calories a bar, which is sort of a lot, but they are actually pretty healthy for being a dessert, anyhow, i never crave any type of icecream anymore, cuz i eat these (less now) a few times a week. i don't eat sweets like a used to and all that. so it's good to give in a little, just gain the self control to eat only ONE. so here it goes.

nicolerae15 @ 2006-12-08T02:54:00

2006-12-08T09:54:05Z

i lost a quarter of pound, but considering, i'm bloated as hell, i didn't work out for a day, i sat down all that day to study, and i ate 800 cals, and i weighed in the afternoon instead of the morning... two hours after i ate cereal... that is OKay! so now i weight 117 3/4. yay, i passed my "i can't get under 118"!!!!!!

nicolerae15 @ 2006-12-06T22:56:00

2006-12-07T05:56:10Z

sooo i weight 118 now, but i haven't weighed for a coupld of days.. and i haven't eaten past 7:30 in a week and a half!! that was like my biggest obstacle. yay me. :) i loooove control

nicolerae15 @ 2006-11-29T19:32:00

2006-11-30T02:32:11Z

so out of all my crash diets, i'm finally in the "get skinny" mode. like really. i have will power that i have not seen in like two years. well so here are my current stats though
ht; 5'1
hw; 123
cw; 119
gw1: 110
gw2; 103
lw; 105
i know your all thinking that i should want to be like 95 for my height, but i think my body would be amazing at 103. and i know i will be able to MAINTAIN that, instead of gain everything back like i always have. and i also lose my ass when i loose weight or it gets all flat and growss and my ass is what i'm known for. guys like ass, and i do gotta say it is my asset. ohhh and i already have no boobs, so i don't want to look like a man. but whatever, i don't need to explain i just need to get to my goal!

nicolerae15 @ 2006-11-13T19:10:00

2006-11-14T02:10:18Z

please give me tricks on how to not eat late at night! i don't want to eat anything past 7 at least, but on weekends i'm up til 3 am probably and around ppl who are... eating! i always lose control around that

nicolerae15 @ 2006-11-13T19:07:00

2006-11-14T02:07:49Z

i'm in a huge cycle of binges. i get going good on the weekends, then lose all concious and then that i can eat on the weekends and somehow it doesn't count. ahh. so then i have to shrink my stomach again on sunday and monday to lose what i did on the weekends... it's a long process. i need tips to not lose control when i'm out with friends on the weekends. and when i stay up late at night how to not eat! any tips please.

nicolerae15 @ 2006-10-24T00:27:00

2006-10-24T06:28:43Z

does anyone find it hard to lose weight when your on birth control. it seems like when i stop taking it i lose twice as fast, and when i screw up it the weight doesn't come back, but when i'm on bc, the weight comes back super fast. just wandering ...

nicolerae15 @ 2006-10-21T12:59:00

2006-10-21T19:02:06Z

so i'm in college and i drink on the weekends. i was doing really good at going out on an okay stomach and drinking and being really hungry and but not eating. i mean i eat dinner at 6 at night but then it comes 2 am and i'm STARVING. and when your a little tipsy you loose your inhibitions. soo lately i've been binging, and like crazy, i feel horrible the next day. anyone have suggestions for this. when i didn't binge i would end up weighing less the next day too. ahh. it's sooo frustrating.

nicolerae15 @ 2006-10-20T13:02:00

2006-10-20T19:03:21Z

plz tell me some secrets to not eating late at night. i don't get off work til 11 pm and i'm starving at this time... any suggestions?